A new age bracket...

So today is my 26th birthday. I had to fill out a survey for work today and at the end you had to fill in your age bracket. Today I had to make 26-35!! I swear it feels like I just graduated highschool.. where did 8 years go so quickly??

With the next year of my life beginning I thought I should outline some goals for this year...

1. Take atleast one class when I get to England. I have been going back and forth about going back to school for a couple of years now. I have a two part dream- I would like to do two things:

• Be a wish granter for the Make A Wish foundation


• Go to school to become a nutritionist. My dream job in this field is to be a nutritionist in a children's hospital setting working with CF patients.

What keeps me from this goal is my inadequacy in math... I was also a mediocre student in highschool and in earning my now pointless associates degree. So I don't have much going for me on paper which has made me hesitant to even try to get in somewhere.... SOOO That is why my goal is to start small. Maybe if I take ONE class I'll see that I can actually succeed!

2. Continue on my journey to fitness and conquering the fight within myself.

3. Do a half marathon in the US and one in the UK.

4. Learn how to cook meals for Mark! I am more of a baker at the minute.

5. Enjoy my new home:

The greatness of working downtown Seattle...

The best part of working downtown is being just a few blocks away from Pikes Place Market. TOURIST central! And I even though I look super serious here- I was really excited to have frozen yogurt! :)

Its been a whirlwind of a couple of days. Finances are really stressful... As i am sure everyone knows. Planning a wedding adds to that stress..

So I decided I'd have some frozen yogurt therapy.

It helped. You should try it.

FRIED.

And surprisingly I am not talking about food in the title.

We had an eventful weekend! We got to spend a lot of time with family as well as some cute puppies we both love...went to a Mariners game and Fado on Saturday. We did the CF walk on Sunday followed by a kayak trip around Lake Union. From those two events I completely FRIED my shoulders. It is the worst burn I have ever had or atleast that I can remember. I can't lift my arms up and bra straps are impossible.

Kayaking was an experience. I have only done it one time before and that was in Greenlake so you could just drift around and be fine. In Lake Union it was a little different. I got completely soaked - Mark was completely dry. (we had seperate kayaks by the way) It was really fun.. but I need more practice!

I found this quote the other day and I feel like its my life right now. "It is the end of something simple and the beginning of everything else"

How true can this be? I am less than 5 months away from everything changing? I'll live somewhere else, I'll have a new last name, I won't have a job... CRAZY.

But honestly...I am soooo excited for it all. I know it will have its tough moments..probably lots of them but that aside I am ready to start this new chapter!

P.S.

RUNNING IN THE SAND IS TOUGH. Doing lunges in the sand is even tougher.

Sitting down is a long process today. :) No pain no gain?

We'll see.

LIFE or something like it.

We went to the Puyallup Spring Fair. This completely unflattering picture was taken while we were on The Scrambler. It was fun day but soooo cold!

I like the happiness on our faces.

I've been thinking a lot lately about growing up and the way it affected my eating habits today. I had a stepdad who thought any time I was in a bad mood it meant that I must be hungry. I even recall a time when my family was driving around one evening and he literally threw a McDonalds cheese burger at me in the backseat and told me to eat it. I think this one situation and many more like it were part of the reason it took me a long time to feel hunger or fullness. I also come from a family that just likes to eat something because its good. NOT because we're hungry. My cousin and I were at my grandparents one day years ago and my grandma came in and asked us if we were hungry. We both said no then she said "would you like a crab coctail?" and we quickly said yes.

I do not consider myself an emotional eater fully but I think I have some aspects of that. I also am very guilty of eating just because its good- especially when it comes to dessert!

This week I have been trying to focus on how I feel at different times of the day in regards to eating. I tend to do really well all day- especially at work. Its dinner time thats the hardest for me.

Crazy Crazy.. will write again soon.

Bad decision.

Went to the movies on an empty stomach. I ate popcorn.

Bad day =Bad decisions!

And whats even worse?? I am not even full.

I should stop. Not in a good enough mood for blogging!

Ditched,

Jessie

If things were different...

I've thought a lot about Jacob today. I went through and read over our last email conversation we had 3 days before his death. It was such a simple conversation about mostly his hair... Its funny to think the last thing I ever said to him was "if you are going to get cornrows make sure you get it done by a professional...:) " We had just talked back and forth about him being home from Australia and how life is really the same even though 10 months had passed... and he was excited to return to Australia for a couple months once his wisdom teeth were out.

And just two days later he died. Death is just wierd. My mind still doesn't get it or maybe it just doesn't want to. It's wierd that its a new year and its one he did not live in.

Its just not right or fair or anything that makes sense. Its only sad.

and if things were different he would have not missed last weekend's Fremont Cystic Fibrosis pub crawl for the world. I would have heard his crazy laugh outside the Red Door. I would not have had to take a prarie fire shot in his memory.